i could devour you.

Size: ?

Age: 18.

Highest Weight: 160.00 lbs.

Lowest Weight: 124.00 lbs.

Goal Weight: 88.00 lbs.

Favorite Diet Food?

Salad, fat free dressing, egg whites.

Favorite Binge Food?

Pizza, toast with butter and sugar, anything..

Favorite Exercise?

Anything cardio.

Thinspo?

Anything with a BMI lower than 17.

What Makes You Slip Up?

Boredom.

What Makes You Strong?

When I see the number on the scale, when I see old pictures, when I think of how perfect I'll be.

When Did It Start?

Last year.

Does Anyone Know?

Sam. Boyfriend. A few friends.

Do You Want Help?

Um, no.

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?

500 max.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?

The biggest tummy in the world. Mile wide thighs. Jiggly ass. Flabby arms. Too much.

Are You In A Relationship?

Yes! <3

Is It For Attention?

Nope.

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?

Thin, but not the thinnest.

Are You Depressed?

Yes, but not as much as I was before.

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?

No, but I was hospitalized for idealization.

Ever Been To A Psychologist?

Several.

Are You On Any Medication?

Lexapro, lamictal, abilify.

I AM -

[x] anorexic

[ ] ednos

[ ] bulimic

[x] living off diet pills

[ ] hungry

[x] thirsty

[x] drinking something

[ ] eating something

[ ] under 100lbs

[x] starving myself

[ ] participating in a fast

[ ] vegan

PEOPLE -

[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic

[x] call me fat

[x] say I’m skinny

[ ] say I’m ugly

[x] say I’m pretty

[ ] spread rumors about me

[ ] force me to eat

[x] say I eat too much

[ ] wish I’d eat more

[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH -

[x] I was thin

[x] I had a better body

[x] I didn't have to eat

[x] I could control myself

[x] I was under 110lbs

[x] I could avoid food

[x] I could hide what I am

[x] I wasn’t fat

[x] I was prettier

[ ] I could stop being ana/mia

[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend

[x] I could disappear

I LOVE -

[x] feeling hungry

[x] seeing a difference

[x] shaking

[x] being weak (but strong at the same time)

[x] losing weight

[x] being anorexic/bulimic

[x] green tea

[x] diet pills

[x] being able to turn down food

[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -

[x] when people stare

[x] being asked questions

[x] having to eat

[x] being single

[ LOL ] wearing short skirts

[x] being fat

[x] looking ugly

[x] feeling this way

[x] fat people

I NEED -

[x] more support

[x] people to stay out of my business

[ ] more friends

[ ] someone to know

[x] less food

[x] more water

[ ] a gym membership

[ ] to lose 50 lbs

[x] to lose 30 lbs (36, actually).

[ ] to lose 10 lbs