drugs.

ive been spending a lot of time reading scar tissue by anthony kiedis, the lead singer of red hot chili peppers. i got all their music. and i got all of john frusciante's solo stuff. i can't get over his album, "shadows collide with people". it's so mellow at times, but really jammy and upbeat in others. fuck. i love this man.

however, when i was reading scar tissue, quite a bit of it focused on his drug addictions. i never really realized how similar drug addictions are to eating disorders. it's more of a general sense, i think. anthony was routinely triggered into going on benders by break ups. this might just be the strange little faggot-fan in me, but i do feel a sort of kinship with him and john, 'cause they both had demons that were hard to shake.

anthony said wrote, in this one part, about how he was in group therapy or something at rehab. the person who was speaking said, statistically, that only one person out of all the people that were in that room (i think there were forty or so?) would stick with recovery from their addictions. anthony wrote, that he was determined to be that one person.

yet time and time again, he used.

it's a strange comparison, because eating disorders are, i think, about deprivation - generally speaking - while drug addicts seek out their vice. but the things he wrote just struck me, i guess.

hm.

that's it, i suppose. go check out "this cold" by john frusciante. the vocal melodies tug at my heart strings in an incredible way.